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I've got some art trade stuff I need to do for neopets, but I've decided to put up a Kiriban.

So, if you catch my 1,500 pageview, and screencap it, then I'll draw you a picture. Whatever you want, a sketch, a cg, a fullbody, a chibi.

Yeah. I /doubt/ anyone is going to catch it, but hey, free art.

So here's what you do:
You see that I have 1,500 pageviews.
You hit the Prnt Scrn button on your keyboard.
You paste the screenie into your favorate art program.
Save it and upload it to deviantart.

Then send me a note, and If your the first one to get it, you
get free arts.


Oh hai, speaking of art trades, I might do them. So note me if you want to, okay?







Next on the agenda:
I've been meaning to put this list up for a LONG, long time now.
It's an art challenge. I want to do it because it gives me the best excuse ever to practice. Seriously, I don't draw enough. And if I don't draw, I can't grow. Time to burst outside of my box, eh?

So here's the deal:

1.) Make 100 pics each pic having a theme listed below. Each pic should have ONE and only ONE theme to it, for it to count.

2.) No time limit so have fun

3.) The main picture should be drawn but not limited to. for all fair purposes, people are allowed to use their paint programs and photo shop to create the pic.

3a.) pics should be of own artistic ability. You may not edit photos, or break any other rules set out in the Da etiquette policy. Your pics can be anything from sketches and doodles to great master pieces. Just have fun with it.

4.) The list below is to be placed somewhere in your journal for others to see that......
A.)You are in the challenge
B.)What you have completed

5.) make sure to update this list and check off what is done and make a link to the pic

6.) In the comments for your art work note if it is part of the list and what ONE theme it is.

THE LIST............................
1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation

This list is going to take priority in my art world, unless, you know, someone wants to /pay/ me to draw for them...


Which brings me to the last thing I want to talk about...





I want a subscription!
seriously.

If someone buys me a subscription, I'm willing to go to the art extreame. Hell yeah.

50 peices of art, for you, for the price of a 1 year subscription.

50. Peices.

I might even go to 100. Might.

Is it tempting?
I hope so.





I should probably set up one of those neat little lists with my real life friends and my online friends. First, I have to figure out who my online friends are. Because though I comment on a lot of work, and talk to a lot of people, I'm not sure who's my 'friend' and who's 'the artist behind the art I comment on' and nothing more.


Well, ta ta for now. I want to draw.

clubs here: [link]


So, ahem. I would first like to say I really enjoy the new look of the journal update page. It's pretty badass.

Next, has anyone noticed I kind of dissappeared for a week? well. I'm back.

See, last friday, my dad comes in my room and says "Start packing, you're great-grandmother is really sick and we have to go see her."

And I'm all "WTF!? Are you kidding me? I can't just up-and-leave!"
And dad's all "We leave at 4am in the morning. Weather you pack or not, you have to come."

and I complained I didn't want to come, and he was all "Mickey can come too!"

So. I shut up, and packed, and we were off on the road 4 in the morning. erugh.


My great-grandma died before we got there, and it's not like I was forced to go to the funeral or anything, but I hate my up-north family sort of. I love them to bits, but I hate how every time I see them it's:

"My, how much you've grown!"
"You're turning into such a fine young lady."
"-pinches cheeks-"

We stayed with my aunt on my dad's side, and she has this HUGE house she build herself. Everyone wasn't home most of the time, so me and Mickey were by ourselves.
We played Monopoly, and swam A LOT.


Now I'm taaaannnnn.


I'm glad we didn't have to stay with Grandma. Mom's side of the family is really Christiany, and I can't swear at all in her house or anything. I have to be absolutely perfect. you know, sit up straight, eat with a -fork-. Eurggghhhh.

I'm SO GLAD to be back. I slept for so long last night, because we were on the road for so long. But it also took me awhile to actually fall asleep, because me and mickey had to share a bed the whole trip and I was so used to him sleeping with me I couldn't fall asleep without that weight in the bed next to me.


I've got a lot of stuff to go through, and a lot of resting to catch up on.

SO GLAD to Be back!

Clubs here: [link]

Hullo deviants.
If you ever want to see my art on here again, you will very much have to find a way to get me un-addicted to Tegaki-E. because it's wonderful.
And lovely.

and I don't know why, But I draw better when I draw on there.
So, I'm going to get some school work done, seeing as how I only have one day left to finish like 8 weeks of work. eurgh. I hate math.



And, I went to this resort type thing today. I got so sunburned. And I wore a really skimpy bakini. Like, not just string, but even though the bottom was tasteful the top didn't cover much. So everywhere I went all the guys were staring, and they weren't hiding it.

It really pissed Mickey off, Lol.

This one group of guys actually waited around to see me step into the outdoor shower thing (the shower you use in your swimsuit before you get into the pool so that you can get off any outside junk) and get all wet. then they kept staring when I got in the pool.

Then these two middle aged dudes stopped playing their game of tennis to watch me jump and dance after I scored a point in the game of tennis I was playing.

Eurgh.

Soooo burnt.

Clubs are here, mmkay? [link]


Alrighty then.
Its 4 in the morning, and all I can think about is life and death. Not in that morbidly emo way. Just that life is over too quickly and then everything is gone and how do you know if you accomplished what you wanted in life? How do you know if you were really FUFILLED!?

Then that got me thinking about little me, years ago, who would proudly smile and tell strangers (When mommy cued) That "I want to be a Marine Biologist!"

Which was lovely, really. Because at the time I did. IT WAS MY DREAM.
But not, it's like, this is real life, and I can't stand the sight of blood or fish guts, how am I supposed to be a Marine Biologist? I just...can't do that kind of thing. I feel bad, because there's a part of me whose still 3 years old and wondering why we can't swim with the fishies.


But I've always thought about a career in writing, because I love doing it and have been told I'm very good. I realise it's hard to break into a writing (and art) career, and I really don't want to be living in a cardboard box for the rest of my life. Heh. I mean, I'll have Mickey, hopefully. So, he's always willing to support me.
But I don't want to use him as some sort of money-crutch.

And what's worse, is that the surefire path to cardboard-box-dom is not having a job at all, or any sort of plan.

And that's kind of where I am. I've been telling people "As soon as I get out of Highschool, I'm shooting straight to Ireland, no questions asked" but I've got no idea where to go and where I'm going to live. Just that I'm going.
What am I going to do when I get there?

I need a plan.

So, right now, at four in the morning, I'm doing something I've been putting off for years.

Looking at colleges.

I guess, I put it off so much because It's a sign that I'm older, now. A HUGE choice -I- to make, and if I fail it's my own fault. I don't want to be thrusted into Adulthood only to make a mistake that could ruin my whole life.

Yeah, these are my 4am thoughts.


So, I'm looking at colleges riiight now, as we speak. Well, as I type.
And I actually found one I'm really interested in. Amazing, right?

University of Vermont. I know, Vermont isn't Ireland, but Vermont is stable and planned and comforting because I know where I want to go, What I'm going to do, even where I'm going to live.

Sort of.

I'm trying to find an apartment in the Burlington area right now. 1 bedroom, preferably allowing pets.

Because if the place doesn't let me have a kitten, I'm seriously sneaking one in. I don't care if they throw me out.
Well, I do, but at least I'll have my kitten.


And, I'm going to need a job in that area as well. I've got a firing on my record, so it's not going to be an easy thing to do, but I'm going to start looking. I'll need a summer job here as well. I might take art commissions, if I improve, because right now my art is trash and -I- wouldn't buy it.

Okay, maybe not trash. That's a bit harsh, even for me.


I know one thing I DON'T want to do is live in campus. I just..I don't know. I don't like the close proximity of campus housing. If I can't find an apartment, though, I'll live on campus for my first year if I absolutely have to.
A roof over my head is still a roof, nomatter where it is, right?
And oh god, I don't want a roommate. -clings to Mickey- If we get an apartment, we can live together. And I won't have to live with someone seriously scary. Which is a possibility.

Vermont is really beautiful, so I'm excited that I might be living there.

I say MIGHT, because a big flaw in most people is to have one plan and stick to it and be happy.

That's a flaw, because if I don't get into Uni of Vermont, where does that leave me?

Card. Board. Box.

So I'm going to have a couple back up plans. Champlain College is one of them. It's a very nice Private collage. I've seen some pictures. Not as Pretty as Uni of Vermont, but still beautiful.

And unlike Uni of Vermont, they offer courses in professional and creative writing. Something I can DEFINATELY do.

Right now, I'm looking at art courses, foreign studies, and several language courses. Including GREEK.
Those are at Uni of Vermont, though.

And I'm concentrating on back-up plans. Or, at least trying too.


If all else fails, I'll got to PCC. Urgh. But since mostly everyone I know is going to PCC, I'm tying to stay as far away from PCC as possible. I want a fresh start, where people don't already hate me for being weird. I want to go out into the world, not stay confined to where I am now.


I really, really hope I don't have to settle for PCC. -sigh- I don't want my degrees and whatnot from a school famous for letting anyone in.

"If you fail highschool, go to PCC."

Seriously. Urhg.



So yeah. That's what I've been doing. Looking at schools. If anyone has any good recommendations for colleges, I'd love to hear them. Anywhere is fine, really, as long as it's not some place with like, tornadoes every day and a rapist on every corner.

I'd also like schools to preferably have courses in writing and art.
Though, I MAY do Zoology.

Always gotta have a backup. <3

Clubs are listed in the journal previous to this.

Here's a memethingy mabober, about myself. Containing more info than I think people want to know. OH WELL.

[X] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[X] I have many scars.
[X] I tan easily.
[X] I wish my hair was a different color.
[X] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[ ]I have/I've had braces.
[X] I wear glasses.
[X] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[X] I have more than 2 piercing.
[ ] I have piercing in places besides my ears.
[X] I have freckles.
[ ] I hate my dad
[ ] I hate my mom
[X] I have a brother
[X] I have a sister
[X] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[X] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[X] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.
[X] I'm in school.
[ ] I have a job.
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[X] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[X] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[X] I've stolen something from my job.
[X I've been fired.
[X] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[X] Disney movies still make me cry.
[X] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something.
[X] I've had my pants rip in public.
[X] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[X] I've gotten stitches/staples.
[X] I've broken a bone
[X] I've had my tonsils removed!
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[X] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.
[ ] I was born in a different country.
[X] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[X] I've been on a plane.
[X] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe.
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[X] I've gotten lost in my city.
[ ] I've seen a shooting star.
[ ] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[X] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[ ] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[X] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[X] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[X] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[ ] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[X] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.
[ ] I'm single.
[X] I'm in a relationship. (see below)
[X] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[X] I miss someone right now.
[X] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[X] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[X] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[X] I've kept something from a past relationship.
[X] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[X] I'm bi
[ ] I'm gay
[X] I've had sex
[X] I've had phone sex
[X] I've cybered
[ ] I've had sex in public.
[X] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[X] I've been kissed in the rain.
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.
[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[X] I've snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[X] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed.
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[X] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[X] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[X] I've woken up crying.
[X] I'm afraid of dying.
[X] I hate funerals
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[X] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[X] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[X] I've planned my own suicide
[ ] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[X] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[X] I own a plushie of my fave character from anything.
[x] I own a cosplay outfit
[X] I know what cosplay means.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[X] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[x] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[X] I open up to others easily. (Kind of sort of. Depends on who.)
[X] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[X] I curse regularly.
[X] I sing in the shower.
[X] I am a morning person. (Once again, kind of sort of.)
[X] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. (when I had a cell phone.)
[X] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[X] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[X] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[X] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[X] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[X] I eat fast food weekly
[X] I believe in ghosts.
[X] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[X] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[X] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I am really ticklish.
[X] I love white chocolate (And milk, and dark, )
[ ] I bite my nails.
[X] I play video games.
[X] I'm good at remembering faces.
[X] I'm good at remembering names.
[X] I'm good at remembering dates.
[X] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[X] I loathe labels
[X] I like action movies
[ ] I like horror movies
[X] I like chick flicks
[X] I know the most random facts about things people have never heard of before
[X] I can't spell
[X] I treasure my friends.
[X] I think of others before myself.
[X] All of those are answered honestly. (SADLY)